Tired ...

i'm tired of you..
i'm tired of that i have to do things to satisfy you..
i'm tired of expecting things from you..
i'm tired of you quitting the conversation without even notice..
i'm tired of you not paying attention in our conversation..
i'm tired of you giving fake hope..
i'm tired of you giving wrong signals..
i'm tired of you quitting in the last minute..
i'm tired of your lies..
i'm tired of you stupid excuses..
and yeah, i'm totally tired of u..

i know i'm not perfect, but i do cherish friendship. i know the importance of friendship but why people have to do something that hurt a people's feeling?
did i try too hard to maintain the relationship between us?
did i do not enough to maintain our relationship?
did i do something bad towards you in the past life that i deserve that kind hurtful indirect actions towards me?
did i do something wrong?

i'm tired of being nice.. i'm tired of satisfying people.. if i had satisfied the person and the person did something in return or show somekind of appreciation, that's enough for a simple person like me. i do not ask for more, i just want some kind of interest or enthusiast for the things i had sacrifice to do that. i could just thought nothing happened n show no kind of actions towards it. but i thought i wanna everybody to be happy n i chose to sacrificed myself, but u all just dont show any appreciation and from the bottom of my heart, it do hurts!!

i wish i had chose to do nothing, i totally regret about it. it just give me frustration for nothing and thanks for giving me false hope. but i still do cherish you as my friend no matter wat.

i don't think the person would know who izzit, and i dont hope he/she knows it. i dont want the person know about it too.

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totally not related to the upper post..

i just finished watching survivor season 15!! yeah, i cant imagine that myself had watched 14 seasons of survivor!! although amanda lost but i am happy that ozzy and amanda are together!! *i think only wendy would know wat am i talking.. i love ozzy!!*

wendy, u gotta watch this season because this is one of the bestest season of survivor. in the beginning it was boring, as the show goes on, it getting more interesting. i cant believe a guy in the show actually gave up his immunity as he was not even in the safe spot.

i just love this season.. just too much blindside, hot chicks, dumb asses and woman rules the game!~ cant wait for the next season would be in Gabon located in Africa. i love africa as it was one of my favourite season in the past.

i love survivor!!!~