memoirs..

last sunday, when i was reading newspaper, i saw pictures of national service trainees came back from the camp which reminded so much of my own memories in the camp.

on January 1st, 2006, i boarded a bus to Kem Semarak which located in Pekan, Pahang. it's about 4 hours drive from KL. i nearly cried b4 boarding the bus becoz i know i will be homesick to death. i remembered i cried on the second day in the camp with 2 of my friends and every night b4 i went to bed for a week. sigh, i am homesick to death coz the life there sucks. i couldn't get used to the food, the environment n i have to speak not even a quarter of bucket malay. it's so hard to communicate with them as most of them don't really understand english.

but i had experience a period of my happiest life. living at there is like a vacation without thinking waking up at 5.30am, marching drill, boring class and the sunlight.. it's a period that you don't have to think anything, everyday just play play play and gossip and backstab friends around you.
the most memorable and immature thing i had done was liking a guy. it was a love at the first sight. *gosh, i'm blushing* i noticed this guy, X in a room where we have to set up an bank account. i was there to accompany my friend to do that and he was there. he immediately caught my attention and i actually liked him immediately. he was tall, fair, plum abit, which is totally my kind of guy.

at that time, i was hoping in some way i could get to know him but... too bad, i wasn't in the same company, same class or whatsoever with him. the only chance i could get to know him is when shuffling of character building class. we changed classes for 2 times n i couldn't get to be in the same class with him. guess wat? i was such in a desperate mood till i changed the class by my own. lol yeah, i was so immature by then.

there's a lot of stupid things a bunch of girls we did it together. each of us have different guys that we like, so very ngam the guys and us always go to have dinner at the same time. so to take chances to know him and look them nearer, the only chance is to go to wash dishes at the same time. our camp is super strict, we cant talk to any guys other than in the character building class. we cant even talk when we're washing our plates but we can c the guys quite near. so whenever they had finished their dinner n went to wash their plates, we would go to wash our plates as well.

everyday at 5pm, we would have a time which free activities in terms you play balls and stupid games outside. so we, the girls will go to see them either playing basketball or soccer at the field. but after a while, we dont do that anymore coz we rather sit at somewhere gossip about girls lol.

although i was in the same character building class with him once, but we dont talk often. yeah, in the camp i think i din talk to him more than 10 sentences. i was too shy to make the first move but i had one picture with him which will makes my memory forever.

i still remember before leaving our camp in the bus, the last person i saw in another bus was him. his bus was just next to me. i was thinking, oh god i wouldn't be seeing you forever and ever, that will be my full stop for me to like him and back to my kl life.

actually now, i still kinda miss him coz he's so my type!! but i lost all my contacts with him, not even msn.. dang!! to be honest, he's the only guy that i had fallen for so deeplyalthough it's just 3 months n he's the second person that i had love on the first sight on. i wish we are still friends n still contacting each other but we arent..