Trust?

These days I'm having again some emo periods. I have been listening too much love songs, watching too much drama... I'm so emo right now, seriously..

These days I noticed that everyone who is chatting with me through MSN are not functioning well. Either they are impatient in chatting with me or we have no topics to talk or we are just talking plain lame stuff to make our brain to be tired or somebody just farkin lied to me..

Yesterday one of I consider "best friend" lied to me. I don't know whether I'm being too emo or what, after I knew he lied to me, I immediately raise my temper. I don't like people lie to me, who likes it? But the problem he is one of my best friend. He is one of the best friend that I truly truly trust and I tell him nearly everything in my life. I trusted him so much and I have so much hope on him and I didn't even expect him to make such a lie.

Seriously, is friendship is that hard to maintain? As friends, we just have to be ourselves to each other and not faking each other, and it's just one word, TRUST! Friendship and love is the same, all about trust! Friends, we don't do intimate actions but love do. That's the difference only! If trust don't exist in between friends, what's the point of being so called 'best friend'? How about just 'normal friends' or 'hi-bye friends'?

Seriously, I have lost confidence in the friendship which we had built for so strong. I know I had been exaggerating the whole situation or make it worse but you must understand at the point that, do you take me as ur best friend or just a normal friend? why can't you just be truthful to me and tell me the truth. When I know the truth, I don't even see a point or reason that you need to lie to me.

Maybe I just take this friendship too far.... I guess I have to lower expectations much more. I guess I have to back to the start where I don't trust anyone except my family.

Currently listening to Holding Back the Tears by TVXQ